Kajra re crooner Alisha Chinai, who turned 49 earlier this week with a quiet birthday at her home in Alibag with only her dad for company, finds it tough being ‘companion-less’. Nevertheless, she’s ‘happy being the queen in my own castle’.
“I’ve been on my own for many years now,” she said. “And I’d be pretending if I said I didn’t miss that someone special in my life. It’s been very tough on me to be companion-less.
“Lekin love meri fitrat aur kismet mein nahin (Love is not in my nature and destiny). It’s better to accept the karmic truth than to keep searching for something that destiny has not willed for you and hurt yourself repeatedly by trying to get it.”
Chinai was married to Rajesh Jhaveri in the 1980s but they separated after her career took off. In 2003, she was in a serious relationship with a Canadian musician-entrepreneur Romel Kazzouah. The two of them almost made it to the altar before they broke up.
The singer said: “I gave everything I could to make my relationships work, but fate had other plans. I’d be lying if I said I don’t miss love in my life. Of course I do. But after so many years, love has become a fantasy in my head rather than a reality.
“Reality bites. And I’ve to admit I am better off alone. Love sounds better in a song. I am happy being the queen in my own castle.”
Rather than dwell on relationships, Chinai is keeping her mind on her work and says she is ready to cut her own album.
“I am still smiling and I am ready for a comeback,” she said. “Some people crib about the thorns in the roses. I am grateful there are some roses in a bouquet of thorns. My life has not been a bed of roses. My failures have inspired me more than my success.”
Chinai also said that she had been inundated with birthday wishes on Twitter.
“It was exhausting but very satisfying,” she said. “I didn’t realise I had so many diehard fans. It feels good. Yeah, life is beautiful.”
