What happens to a dream deferred? Filmmaker Sandi Tan has had to grapple with that question for the last 25 years.
In 1992, the then-19-year-old made an ambitious and ultra-low budget road movie with friends Jasmine Ng and Sophie Siddique that seemed certain to become a cult classic in their native Singapore — if only because the country’s film production was essentially nonexistent. But then Georges Cardona, the mysterious, middle-aged American film teacher who was tasked with directing the project, vanished without a trace and took 70 canisters of film, boxes of scripts and storyboards with him.
“It was a slow drip, the realisation,” Tan says of having the footage taken. “It just kills you slowly. It was months, maybe years before it dawned on us.
“It’s like we remembered what it was like to fly and now we have to walk forever,” she continues. “You are back to Earth, doomed to never speak of this because there’s no proof that it ever happened. There’s no proof you were ever special.”
The whole sordid story is the focus of ‘Shirkers,’ a Netflix documentary that shares its name — and a significant amount of footage — with the would-be film.
Cardona, an enigmatic figure with a passion for art cinema and a knack for tall tales, had befriended the group of teens only to snatch their dreams, and Tan ultimately discovered she wasn’t the only one this happened to.
“He was a great storyteller,” Tan says. “He was very, very talented. If he walked into the room right now, the promise of adventure when he talks to you is so intriguing and so seductive that... you’d want to go off with [him].”
With hindsight 20/20 (and now that she’s been reunited with the lost footage in a surprising twist of fate), Tan is able to talk about the late Cardona without bitterness.
“People say I’m too kind to him,” she says. “I don’t think I am. He is not my villain, he is my nemesis and there is a difference. It strengthens me to consider myself his equal, therefore I’m not his victim. I think that’s the way you win over somebody like that.”
In the documentary, Tan uses the recovered footage to illustrate the backstory of ‘Shirkers’ before switching gears to unfurl some of the yarns Cardona spun, involving both herself and other young people he took advantage of.
“It seemed like he would hijack the movie a second time because he’s so interesting,” she says. “But you could not possibly tell our story without telling his story.
“I think his story is so remarkably fascinating because he was very creative. But his way of creating was to create holes in people’s lives so he could be remembered.”
Tan knew for years that the story of ‘Shirkers’ deserved to be told, but it wasn’t until she was reunited with the footage in 2012, the same year her novel ‘The Black Isle’ was published, that she began formulating how to make it happen.
“It took me three years before I could open [the film canisters] and look at them,” she says. “They were like this vortex of something demonic sitting in my house. I knew the moment I opened them and dealt with them it would be a rabbit hole. And I’d be sucked into the underworld like ‘Alice in Wonderland’ again.”
She also knew it would be expensive to digitise the 700 minutes of 16-millimetre footage. But after sitting down with a technician in Burbank, she had her first moment of vindication.
“When I saw the footage I thought, ‘Oh, this is exactly as I remember it,’” she recalls. “It was exactly as shimmering and ambitious as it was in my head all those 20 years ago. And this stranger sitting next to me, who was used to working with amazing footage, his jaw dropped because he had never seen anything like it. And then once he knew the story, he said, ‘OK, wow. This is amazing. You’ve got to do something about it.’”
Persuading Ng and Siddique to participate was the hard part.
“Everybody was afraid of seeming silly that they were taken in [by Georges’ cons],” Tan says. “But when you show us as a whole, you realise nobody was silly because these were all intelligent people and we were all enthralled by Georges at one point in our lives.”
“It’s such a dark force that has bound us for decades, the three of us,” she adds. “But as Sophie says, it’s a double-edged sword because we have a bond unlike that we have with anyone else. It’s like having gone through a war together and now we’re all PTSD soldiers scattered around the world.”
And while the original ‘Shirkers’ is unlikely to ever be seen as it was intended, creating a documentary about the experience afforded Tan a second chance at exploring the filmmaking aspirations of her adolescence.
“Making this film was like rediscovering my confidence in my voice, my passion for making films in the 21st century, [and] knowing that you can use the same kind of DIY methods where you’re basically going it alone in your garage,” she says. “And I find that really exciting. It’s very empowering to realise that you’re not the sorcerer’s apprentice anymore, you’re the sorcerer.”
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Shirkers is now streaming on Netflix.