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The first time my son, Eli, and I played chess, he beat me in four moves. He was 7 years old. At once embarrassed and proud, I told a friend and fellow dad. Sounds familiar, he said. His daughter, only 6, had defeated him the same way: Playing the white pieces, she ensnared his king with a swift two-pronged attack on the f7 square, the weakest on the board for black (as we both learned).

Eli wasn’t necessarily going to be the next Bobby Fischer or Beth Harmon. But he took to chess immediately. He started playing in first grade, learning from his mother and a teacher at his special-needs school.

Ever since his premature birth at 27 weeks — he weighed less than 2 pounds and for a frightening two and a half months clung to life on a ventilator — he’s faced physical and behavioural challenges. Growth hormone deficiency, ADHD, anxiety, lack of impulse control.

In some ways, his difficulties only increased after his mother and I separated when he was 2 and soon divorced.

In other words, from the very start, parenthood was proving vastly different and more trying than I ever imagined it would be. As the single father of such a challenged and challenging kid, I found myself having to toss out the playbook I’d drawn up in my head. I turned to chess as an audible, a play called on the fly, when my son and I needed a score.

After Eli trounced me a couple of times, I faced a crossroads: avoid chess altogether, as the father of one of his classmates did after losing soundly to his son, or take up the game myself. Seeking a connection, I chose to learn.

Decades had gone by since I’d last played chess. At Eli’s age, I far preferred sports. Evenings and weekends, I watched sports on TV with my dad, a tradition I assumed I’d carry on with my son. But as it turns out, sports, at least what I understood them to be, aren’t his bag.

For a time, he loved soccer. He took weekly classes in the basement gyms of old churches and schools and on patches of grass staked out in crowded parks. We spent Saturday afternoons playing pickup games, using our coats, backpacks and water bottles as makeshift goals. Little did he know the field would be massive and most of the other boys bigger, more agile than he was. The first game, he more or less held his own. But he refused to play after that. His mom and I persuaded him to go to the second game, yet neither we nor his coaches and teammates could coax him onto the field. The third game he skipped altogether — and ended up playing street chess instead.

Now 12, Eli will occasionally watch the NFL, but with his mother, not me. Chess was our chance. It enabled the two of us, a single father and an only child who saw each other only three days a week, to bond over a shared interest. At bedtime as a toddler, Eli would ask me to dim the overhead light in his room to the faintest glow. If he returned to his mother’s house the next morning, the light would stay on all day, unnoticeable until nightfall, when the sight of it made me ache.

Looking back, I think Eli, too, saw chess as a way for us to connect. He offered to teach me, setting up the board on our coffee table and demonstrating pins, forks and skewers — tactics he’d learnt in school and mercilessly deployed against me. Eventually, my eye got sharper, yet he was always a move or two ahead. I’d nab his bishop or knight only to expose my queen: I was walking into his traps.

I also attempted to learn on my own, watching videos of chess openings and attacks, but invariably failed to remember them beyond a few moves. I tried playing slower, hoping to make fewer blunders. Eli, impatient by nature, would have none of it. “Come on!” he’d cry.

Losing over and over again stung, but seeing how animated Eli became whenever he played, taught or even talked about chess kept me going.

I bought some chess books and studied puzzles. I created an account on Lichess.org, an open-source server where at any given time upwards of 40,000 games are in play. I lost prolifically at the start but slowly started to improve. One game I won in seven moves, employing a fork trick called the Fried Liver that Eli had taught me.

From time to time, his interest in chess has waned. He’s binged on other games, like Uno or Exploding Kittens. More likely these days, screens monopolise his attention, particularly during the pandemic, since he can join friends online.

But chess keeps calling him back.

With chess, Eli finds an equilibrium that eludes him in other areas of his life. Rather than criticise or curse impulsively, he becomes absorbed in the game. Chess contains him. Endlessly complex, and bound by a set of rules he accepts, it stimulates his analytical mind. On the chessboard, he’s quick, nimble and strong.

Mostly, chess has become an ongoing conversation between us. One evening when he was at his mother’s, I checked my email and found a note from him. He’d been studying the queen-vs.-pawn endgame and wanted to show me how it worked. His room down the hall was dark and the apartment felt empty without him, but for a moment he was right beside me, getting the pieces ready.

Paul Rogers is a columnist

Washington Post